Fear

Assalamualaikum,

I have started my clinical years 2 weeks ago. Alhamdulilah. Tomorrow is my first day going to see patient. Basically we student have to clerk the patient by taking history and do physical examination.
Prior to tomorrow's class, my friends and I went to visit the hospital. This is the first time for me to be in a hospital without my family. I'm lost in my own thoughts. I was wondering what is wrong with me. I was sitting at a bench and keep re-thinking. What's up with this weird emotion. I have never felt this before. It was very strange to me. I took some time to re-evaluate my choice but I do not feel there's anything wrong with that. I look around and I feel myself belong here. This is my kind of environment from now on till the rest of my career years. In sya Allah. But the feeling. The only thing that crossed my mind was "Allahuakhbar" - Allah is Greater. All my limbs are weaken, I stumble upon His Greatness and I can barely do anything but say Allahuakhbar.
Hmm.
May Allah ease us in every single way. Amin

p/s: This is not my comfort zone. One of my friend told me that we are not doing this for our comfort but to help others. In sya Allah

Best of luck to all

Regards,
Maryam